Finding out about the polyps on my uterus was really hard for me. I had never had something like them before and not knowing exactly what was going on, was killing me. I tried not to worry about them, but I couldn't help it. Besides the fear of having uterine cancer I was scared to death of having surgery.
I trusted Dr Shah and his opinion but I also knew that I wasn't his number one priority. So, I made an appointment to see Dr. Campaigne when I returned home. I knew that she would be honest and tell me everything I needed to hear. I'm pretty sure if she had not become an OB, that she would have been a therapist! She's just so great at listening and offering advice.
I left there knowing that I didn't have to get the surgery if I didn't want to. It wasn't required for me to have another child of my own. She did suggest I keep my appointment with Texas Fertility just to see what they had to say.
A week later I had my first visit with Dr. Silverberg at Texas Fertility Center. He seemed to be a little more concerned about the polyps and talked me into having the hysterscopy. The surgery was pretty uneventful. I was in and out in a few hours with just some mild cramps.
I had to wait almost a month for the results. I called just about everyday for my results but no one returned my phone calls. When I finally went in for my post-op Dr. Silverberg realized that they never got my test results back. I waited over an hour while they called CPL but they never came. I'm assured that they must have been clear and was told not to worry. That isn't the easiest thing to do.
Dr. Silverberg sent his "findings" to Dr. Shah and we were approved to move on to the next step.
If only things were that easy...
Thursday, January 24, 2013
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
North Carolina Bound...
5am came quickly last Wednesday. I can't remember the last time I had to get up so early, for anything.
I sat in the terminal waiting to board an airplane to Memphis, the first stop on my journey to North Carolina to meet E. I had an appointment at Duke Fertility to make sure that I qualified to continue on with this process.
Before going I told some of my (famous) mom friends that I wasn't nervous. I realized as I tossed and turned in bed, unable to sleep, that I was extremely nervous. I think I was just anxious to get this part of the process over and done with. It's the initial meet that freaks me out. What if E doesn't like me? What if my weight (which I'm still struggling with) is an issue? What if there is something else wrong with me that I don't know about? So many "what if's".
I found myself questioning the strength that I have to go through this all again. Do I want to put my body through all of this again? Can I really handle it? Will I regret it? Is it worth it?
Having a child is already a difficult decision. Having a child (or two) for someone else makes the decision that much harder.
In the end I decided that I could only be myself and hope that E would like me. I wished for everything to go well during our appointment and I felt confident in my decision to help C and E out.
I waited outside of the baggage claim for E to come and pick me up. I didn't mind the wait. It was a tad cold but I started reading this book, Secret Holocaust Diaries, and I couldn't put the book down. It didn't take very long for her to show up anyway. When she pulled up to the curb I felt nothing short of joy and excitement. It was really nice to see her in person.
She took me to lunch before our appointment at this really yummy Italian place. The pizzas that we ordered were extremely large for single servings and the salad dressing was so freaking good! It was really nice having a while to chat before we had to go to the clinic. I learned more about E's "condition" and reasons for needing a surrogate. I guess the easiest way to explain it is to say she has something similar to Lupus. She is really blessed to have her son and so lucky that they both came out of delivery okay. Sadly, it isn't something she can risk again.
The appointment went okay. The doctor and his staff were really nice. The saline transfer wasn't nearly as uncomfortable as the HSG I underwent before the twins. It was really pretty cool to watch how it worked.
After the procedure we met in a room and discussed the results, my health, and the transfer procedure. First things first. I have polyps. Two of them. They have be removed before the transfer can take place. Next, they "normally" wait 15 months between pregnancies which would move the transfer to May/June time frame. In the end he decided that I was an ideal candidate for a gestational surrogate and that we would double check on everything else and get back to us.
I left there with a bunch of information, no dates, some antibiotics, and orders to have my latest pap smear results sent to his clinic.
I talked to E and the Duke nurse yesterday. Dr. S has a "friend" here at Texas Fertility that he has discussed the polyps with. I have an appointment with this doctor on November 5th and should have the surgery pretty quickly.
One week after the surgery I can start the patches and other medicines required before transfer and we can go ahead with the transfer in December, we don't have to wait!
It's all coming together!
The next step right now is doing a couple of surveys online for Duke Fertility and to start taking prenatal pills along with some extra Folic Acid. Exciting!
I'm very happy that things are working out and that we weren't forced to wait until next year. The plus side? I get a couple of months to drop a little more weight!
I sat in the terminal waiting to board an airplane to Memphis, the first stop on my journey to North Carolina to meet E. I had an appointment at Duke Fertility to make sure that I qualified to continue on with this process.
Before going I told some of my (famous) mom friends that I wasn't nervous. I realized as I tossed and turned in bed, unable to sleep, that I was extremely nervous. I think I was just anxious to get this part of the process over and done with. It's the initial meet that freaks me out. What if E doesn't like me? What if my weight (which I'm still struggling with) is an issue? What if there is something else wrong with me that I don't know about? So many "what if's".
I found myself questioning the strength that I have to go through this all again. Do I want to put my body through all of this again? Can I really handle it? Will I regret it? Is it worth it?
Having a child is already a difficult decision. Having a child (or two) for someone else makes the decision that much harder.
In the end I decided that I could only be myself and hope that E would like me. I wished for everything to go well during our appointment and I felt confident in my decision to help C and E out.
I waited outside of the baggage claim for E to come and pick me up. I didn't mind the wait. It was a tad cold but I started reading this book, Secret Holocaust Diaries, and I couldn't put the book down. It didn't take very long for her to show up anyway. When she pulled up to the curb I felt nothing short of joy and excitement. It was really nice to see her in person.
She took me to lunch before our appointment at this really yummy Italian place. The pizzas that we ordered were extremely large for single servings and the salad dressing was so freaking good! It was really nice having a while to chat before we had to go to the clinic. I learned more about E's "condition" and reasons for needing a surrogate. I guess the easiest way to explain it is to say she has something similar to Lupus. She is really blessed to have her son and so lucky that they both came out of delivery okay. Sadly, it isn't something she can risk again.
The appointment went okay. The doctor and his staff were really nice. The saline transfer wasn't nearly as uncomfortable as the HSG I underwent before the twins. It was really pretty cool to watch how it worked.
After the procedure we met in a room and discussed the results, my health, and the transfer procedure. First things first. I have polyps. Two of them. They have be removed before the transfer can take place. Next, they "normally" wait 15 months between pregnancies which would move the transfer to May/June time frame. In the end he decided that I was an ideal candidate for a gestational surrogate and that we would double check on everything else and get back to us.
I left there with a bunch of information, no dates, some antibiotics, and orders to have my latest pap smear results sent to his clinic.
I talked to E and the Duke nurse yesterday. Dr. S has a "friend" here at Texas Fertility that he has discussed the polyps with. I have an appointment with this doctor on November 5th and should have the surgery pretty quickly.
One week after the surgery I can start the patches and other medicines required before transfer and we can go ahead with the transfer in December, we don't have to wait!
It's all coming together!
The next step right now is doing a couple of surveys online for Duke Fertility and to start taking prenatal pills along with some extra Folic Acid. Exciting!
I'm very happy that things are working out and that we weren't forced to wait until next year. The plus side? I get a couple of months to drop a little more weight!
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
B Introduces Me To E...
On July 1st I got an text from B...
The next day I got a phone call from E. She was... amazing!! I felt that same instant connection with her that I felt the first time I talked to B on the phone.
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"Hey didn't know if you matched but I have a good friend looking for a gestational carrier. Wonderful couple."
The next day I got a phone call from E. She was... amazing!! I felt that same instant connection with her that I felt the first time I talked to B on the phone.
A few weeks later we set up a Skype chat so I could officially "meet" E and her husband, "C'. What a cute couple! They were so easy to talk to and both so sweet. We had a great conversation and in the end we all agreed that we wanted to move forward.
It took me until the first week in August to get all of my medical records together and mailed to the fertility clinic in North Carolina. It took the fertility clinic another couple of weeks to review all of the records and "okay" everything.
Once that was done we set up a psych consult with Dr P-D, the same doctor we saw when we worked with B and C. We got in with her the first week of September and got her okay to keep going with the process.
B was nice enough to let E use the same agreement we used which made things a lot easier. We even ended up using the same lawyers.
I had my phone consult with my lawyer today and there were only a few minor changes that need to be made before the contract can be finalized. Hopefully it's all done in the next couple of days. Once all the parties have signed we can schedule transfer 14 days later!
B was nice enough to let E use the same agreement we used which made things a lot easier. We even ended up using the same lawyers.
I had my phone consult with my lawyer today and there were only a few minor changes that need to be made before the contract can be finalized. Hopefully it's all done in the next couple of days. Once all the parties have signed we can schedule transfer 14 days later!
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I made an appointment with Liane at Nurture last week for my yearly check up and to get started on birth control. Today is my first day taking my pill. It's pretty exciting stuff. The first "real" step in all of this becoming a reality.
The next big step has me traveling to North Carolina for my physical evaluation and a sonohysterogram; That is where they pass a thin catheter through my cervix into the uterine cavity. They slowly inject saline into the cavity while a 3-D ultrasound of the uterus is performed. It's really similar to the HSG I had when I went through this with B but supposedly less painful.
I'm actually really excited to meet E in person!! I have high hopes that the evaluation and saline transfer go well and that we will be able to attempt transfer in November. I'm so thrilled to be able to do this again and look forward to sharing my new journey with all of you!
Monday, September 24, 2012
Intended Parents...
When I decided to become a surrogate I reached out to a few companies to help get me started. I ended up listing my profile with a company called Fertility Bridges. This is where I originally met B and C. We did not end up using Fertility Bridges for anything more than matching us and setting up the first consultation.
Once a surrogate enters into an agreement with intended parents the profiles go into a "holding" pattern. Statuses are updated to show that the surrogate is cycling and it lists when she will be available to cycle again. You are required to wait 6 months after giving birth to start another journey. My profile read that I would be available in August/September of 2012.
After the girls were born I was sure that I would be a surrogate again. I immediately let Fertility Bridges know and it wasn't long before I started getting emails from the IP/Surrogate coordinator.
The first email was for the German couple I mentioned in my previous post. I had a really great phone consultation with them and decided to see if I could help them out. Before we could move forward I had to have a HLA and DQ test. Basically if I matched the husband I wouldn't be able to help them... and I was a match.
The second email was for the couple also mentioned in my previous post. I never heard back about the crazy doctor. I asked the coordinator and she told me they never matched with anyone. Imagine that.
The next email was for a couple in New York. They wanted to transfer their frozen embryos down here to make things easier but the costs of that combined with my surrogate fee wasn't feasible for them.
After that I spoke with a couple in Florida. I really thought things would work out with them but the clinic said no when they found out I had given birth to 7 kids. 4 or less was all they allowed.
The last one was a couple looking for someone with a specific blood type. Unfortunately my type is the exact one they were trying to avoid.
During all of the conversations back and forth with the coordinator I started thinking... what are the chances that she is trying to do what is best for me? It's like having one lawyer represent both sides. After a few discussions I got the feeling that she wasn't "selling" me but instead pushing IP's away from me. I'm sure it has to do with my base fee in comparison to other surrogates listed in their database. I'll admit that my fee is a bit more than some of the other surrogates but most of them are "new" and, like me when I started, don't know where to begin. I have the experience and I think that alone is worth a lot.
After talking with B a few times and hearing her side of things with Fertility Bridges I decided it was probably best to move on. I only intend to be a surrogate one or two more times and I think that I can accomplish that without the help of Fertility Bridges.
Once a surrogate enters into an agreement with intended parents the profiles go into a "holding" pattern. Statuses are updated to show that the surrogate is cycling and it lists when she will be available to cycle again. You are required to wait 6 months after giving birth to start another journey. My profile read that I would be available in August/September of 2012.
After the girls were born I was sure that I would be a surrogate again. I immediately let Fertility Bridges know and it wasn't long before I started getting emails from the IP/Surrogate coordinator.
The first email was for the German couple I mentioned in my previous post. I had a really great phone consultation with them and decided to see if I could help them out. Before we could move forward I had to have a HLA and DQ test. Basically if I matched the husband I wouldn't be able to help them... and I was a match.
The second email was for the couple also mentioned in my previous post. I never heard back about the crazy doctor. I asked the coordinator and she told me they never matched with anyone. Imagine that.
The next email was for a couple in New York. They wanted to transfer their frozen embryos down here to make things easier but the costs of that combined with my surrogate fee wasn't feasible for them.
After that I spoke with a couple in Florida. I really thought things would work out with them but the clinic said no when they found out I had given birth to 7 kids. 4 or less was all they allowed.
The last one was a couple looking for someone with a specific blood type. Unfortunately my type is the exact one they were trying to avoid.
During all of the conversations back and forth with the coordinator I started thinking... what are the chances that she is trying to do what is best for me? It's like having one lawyer represent both sides. After a few discussions I got the feeling that she wasn't "selling" me but instead pushing IP's away from me. I'm sure it has to do with my base fee in comparison to other surrogates listed in their database. I'll admit that my fee is a bit more than some of the other surrogates but most of them are "new" and, like me when I started, don't know where to begin. I have the experience and I think that alone is worth a lot.
After talking with B a few times and hearing her side of things with Fertility Bridges I decided it was probably best to move on. I only intend to be a surrogate one or two more times and I think that I can accomplish that without the help of Fertility Bridges.
Sunday, May 27, 2012
Interested?
I got an email this weekend about another set of parents that are looking for a surrogate. This is what it said...
I think I was in shock as I read the requirements...
Under 35, √ (until November)
Caucasian, √
Married with a crap load of kids, in a semi stable environment, √
Willing to have a c-section √ (only if medically necessary)
Amniocentesis, √ (If you really want one)
No tattoos or body piercings, √
No breast augmentations, √
Willing to give a hair sample for prior drug screening, √ (wow)
Willing to undergo random drug testing, √ (Whoa... who are these people?)
Willing to allow a home visit prior to selection, √ (hope you don't mind the crap load of kids and messy house)
Willing to eat mostly organic foods, √ (yum)
No indoor cats, - indoor and outdoor cat but I don't change the litter (got to love kids and chores!)
No history of depression, √
Surrogacy friendly states, √ (as long as you aren't a gay couple, Texas doesn't support them)
Willing to travel for transfer, √
August or November pregnancy, √ (who are these people again?)
4 frozen embryos, no way in hell they are putting all 4 in at once! Quadmom?
Experienced, √
I added to the list that I would only use my doctor.
I'm not sure what to expect from this couple and it kind of scares me to imagine working with a couple with a list like this... but I'm open to trying anything once.
I also got an email about the Germany couple. They wanted to make sure I would be willing to transfer two embryos, not just one. I agreed but only if they intend to keep both babies if they both took. I don't think I could do selective reduction.
I'm excited to have the opportunity to do this again but at the same time I'm really nervous. I only hope that whatever happens, whoever picks me... that they will be half as wonderful as B and C were to me.
Guess we will just wait and see what happens!
Kelcie,
I have another set of Intended Parents that are looking for a surrogate that is willing to meet the requirements below. Can you take a look and see if you want me to send them your profile?
Obviously no drug history, alcohol, prescription meds or smoking
-Under 35 yo
-Hispanic or Caucasian
-Married with own children, stable enviroment
-Willing to have a C-section
-Amniocentesis
-No tattoos or body piercings (one or two small tattoos would be OK)
-No breast augmentations (increase in platinum levels in blood)
-Willing to give a hair sample for prior drug use screening
-Willing to undergo random drug testing while pregnant, including a urine EtH (detects alcohol 3-4 days after consumption)
-Willing to allow a home visit prior to selection
-Willing to eat mostly organic foods, at our expense, during pregnancy
-No indoor cats
-No history of depression
-Surrogacy friendly states
-No history of depression
-Surrogacy friendly states
-Willing to travel for transfer
-We would like to get pregnant in August or November
-We have 4 precious frozen embryos
-We would prefer an experienced surrogate
Under 35, √ (until November)
Caucasian, √
Married with a crap load of kids, in a semi stable environment, √
Willing to have a c-section √ (only if medically necessary)
Amniocentesis, √ (If you really want one)
No tattoos or body piercings, √
No breast augmentations, √
Willing to give a hair sample for prior drug screening, √ (wow)
Willing to undergo random drug testing, √ (Whoa... who are these people?)
Willing to allow a home visit prior to selection, √ (hope you don't mind the crap load of kids and messy house)
Willing to eat mostly organic foods, √ (yum)
No indoor cats, - indoor and outdoor cat but I don't change the litter (got to love kids and chores!)
No history of depression, √
Surrogacy friendly states, √ (as long as you aren't a gay couple, Texas doesn't support them)
Willing to travel for transfer, √
August or November pregnancy, √ (who are these people again?)
4 frozen embryos, no way in hell they are putting all 4 in at once! Quadmom?
Experienced, √
I added to the list that I would only use my doctor.
I'm not sure what to expect from this couple and it kind of scares me to imagine working with a couple with a list like this... but I'm open to trying anything once.
I also got an email about the Germany couple. They wanted to make sure I would be willing to transfer two embryos, not just one. I agreed but only if they intend to keep both babies if they both took. I don't think I could do selective reduction.
I'm excited to have the opportunity to do this again but at the same time I'm really nervous. I only hope that whatever happens, whoever picks me... that they will be half as wonderful as B and C were to me.
Guess we will just wait and see what happens!
Thursday, May 24, 2012
Closed For Renovation...
I can't believe it's only been 3 months... it seems like so long ago. The girls are doing great! I get updates from B every once in a while and she says they are PERFECT! <3 I love hearing the happiness in her voice!
I'm pleased to report that I'm back to my pre-pregnancy weight. I never thought that would happen so quickly after all the weight I gained! For a while there I was really worried that my feet and legs would remain swollen for the remainder of my life. I can't even begin to tell you how thrilled I was when I was able to put my wedding ring back on and wear my shoes again! Complete joy! :)
I'm working really hard right now to lose a few more pounds and build some muscle. It's my goal to improve my health and become stronger before the next Womb and Board journey!
The agency that I'm signed up with requires a waiting period of six months before cycling again. That doesn't mean that they won't attempt to match me before that date arrives, it just means that I can't go through a transfer until my six months are up.
I actually got a phone call the other day from a coordinator asking if I wanted to match again. I told her that I wouldn't mind. I sent in a medical release for my pregnancy with the girls and updated my profile. A couple of days later I got another phone call saying that they had a couple interested in meeting with me.
It was a little odd. The moment she said those words to me I recalled my first conversation with B and C. I thought to myself there is no way I'll ever meet another couple like them. There is no way anyone else will compare to them. I doubted that I could do this again but I agreed to the conference anyway.
I wasn't nervous at all when I called the 800 number to connect with the coordinator and intended parents. I came on the line, introduced myself, told them all about my family, and answered their questions.
I didn't feel the immediate connection that I felt with B and C but I did feel something as I heard them explain their situation.
They live in Germany and have been trying for years to get pregnant. They have attempted IVF and are down to their last 4 embryos. They had to use an egg donor and their doctor suggested that using a surrogate is the last option.
I think the conversation went really well. They seemed to be happy with my responses to the questions they asked and I was okay with their requests, for the most part.
I could tell toward the end of our conversation that this was a really big decision for them. The intended dad asked that we give them about 10 days to make a final decision.
So, I wait. And you know what there is no doubt in my mind... I'm okay with doing this again because I can do it again. I can help them become a family and give them something they have dreamed about for so long. I would be honored if they chose me. Guess we shall see...
I'm pleased to report that I'm back to my pre-pregnancy weight. I never thought that would happen so quickly after all the weight I gained! For a while there I was really worried that my feet and legs would remain swollen for the remainder of my life. I can't even begin to tell you how thrilled I was when I was able to put my wedding ring back on and wear my shoes again! Complete joy! :)
I'm working really hard right now to lose a few more pounds and build some muscle. It's my goal to improve my health and become stronger before the next Womb and Board journey!
The agency that I'm signed up with requires a waiting period of six months before cycling again. That doesn't mean that they won't attempt to match me before that date arrives, it just means that I can't go through a transfer until my six months are up.
I actually got a phone call the other day from a coordinator asking if I wanted to match again. I told her that I wouldn't mind. I sent in a medical release for my pregnancy with the girls and updated my profile. A couple of days later I got another phone call saying that they had a couple interested in meeting with me.
It was a little odd. The moment she said those words to me I recalled my first conversation with B and C. I thought to myself there is no way I'll ever meet another couple like them. There is no way anyone else will compare to them. I doubted that I could do this again but I agreed to the conference anyway.
I wasn't nervous at all when I called the 800 number to connect with the coordinator and intended parents. I came on the line, introduced myself, told them all about my family, and answered their questions.
I didn't feel the immediate connection that I felt with B and C but I did feel something as I heard them explain their situation.
They live in Germany and have been trying for years to get pregnant. They have attempted IVF and are down to their last 4 embryos. They had to use an egg donor and their doctor suggested that using a surrogate is the last option.
I think the conversation went really well. They seemed to be happy with my responses to the questions they asked and I was okay with their requests, for the most part.
I could tell toward the end of our conversation that this was a really big decision for them. The intended dad asked that we give them about 10 days to make a final decision.
So, I wait. And you know what there is no doubt in my mind... I'm okay with doing this again because I can do it again. I can help them become a family and give them something they have dreamed about for so long. I would be honored if they chose me. Guess we shall see...
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
Till Next Time...
I can't believe it's been (almost) 3 months since the twins were born. Time flies!
Recovery was just about perfect. I'm a trooper and have a high tolerance for pain, but even I had to admit that I couldn't fully function for the first week or two. Of course that didn't stop me from trying! :)
The hardest part for me was waiting on the swelling to go down. I wanted to put my wedding ring back on and wear my shoes again. I ranted about it to some of my mommy friends and was assured that it would go down along with my weight. But I really felt like it was NEVER going to happen. If it wasn't for one friend in particular, I would have just given up and stayed down in the dumps. This friend was amazing. So supportive and encouraging. And to think I met her online over three years ago and have never met her in person.... it's on my "to-do" list.
The swelling did eventually go down and I got to put my wedding ring back on! It took a little less than a month for all of the swelling to go away and for me to drop all the weight I had gained. I was truly amazed! I couldn't believe it happened so quickly. Maybe I owe it all to the Belly Bandit? If you have no idea what that is and happen to get pregnant, GET ONE! AMAZING! I never believed in anything like this product before and never used anything like it with my other pregnancies but after reading reviews I decided to give it a shot. I gained twice as much with the twins as I did with my singeltons and getting rid of that extra weight was really important to me. I used it for 6 weeks and loved the confidence it gave me!
I'm pretty sure pumping also helped with the weight loss. I ended up doing it for almost 8 weeks. It was a little strange at first, devoting 15 minutes every 2-3 hours for pumping, but it was well worth it and made me feel good to help the girls out.
Shipping milk is a little crazy. I had no idea how much work went into packing and shipping something like that. Thank goodness for FedEx!
I look back over this whole adventure all the time. How it started and all the adventures we endured. In the end I wouldn't have changed a thing. I'm so happy that B and C chose me to be a part of this. There is something really amazing about helping a family grow and creating little miracles. <3
Recovery was just about perfect. I'm a trooper and have a high tolerance for pain, but even I had to admit that I couldn't fully function for the first week or two. Of course that didn't stop me from trying! :)
The hardest part for me was waiting on the swelling to go down. I wanted to put my wedding ring back on and wear my shoes again. I ranted about it to some of my mommy friends and was assured that it would go down along with my weight. But I really felt like it was NEVER going to happen. If it wasn't for one friend in particular, I would have just given up and stayed down in the dumps. This friend was amazing. So supportive and encouraging. And to think I met her online over three years ago and have never met her in person.... it's on my "to-do" list.
The swelling did eventually go down and I got to put my wedding ring back on! It took a little less than a month for all of the swelling to go away and for me to drop all the weight I had gained. I was truly amazed! I couldn't believe it happened so quickly. Maybe I owe it all to the Belly Bandit? If you have no idea what that is and happen to get pregnant, GET ONE! AMAZING! I never believed in anything like this product before and never used anything like it with my other pregnancies but after reading reviews I decided to give it a shot. I gained twice as much with the twins as I did with my singeltons and getting rid of that extra weight was really important to me. I used it for 6 weeks and loved the confidence it gave me!
I'm pretty sure pumping also helped with the weight loss. I ended up doing it for almost 8 weeks. It was a little strange at first, devoting 15 minutes every 2-3 hours for pumping, but it was well worth it and made me feel good to help the girls out.
Shipping milk is a little crazy. I had no idea how much work went into packing and shipping something like that. Thank goodness for FedEx!
I look back over this whole adventure all the time. How it started and all the adventures we endured. In the end I wouldn't have changed a thing. I'm so happy that B and C chose me to be a part of this. There is something really amazing about helping a family grow and creating little miracles. <3
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